How Open Are You to Possibilities?

I saw a post recently that dumbed down someone’s healing from multiple sclerosis. Several people posted to the effect that the person had been misdiagnosed and the assumption being that his beliefs in being ‘healed’ had no real foundation.
 IMG_4972When I was a young bride in the early ’60’s and a new mother I had episodes of muscle weakness, paralysis, impaired vision, headaches and painful nerve twitching for nearly five years.  This was put down to severe morning sickness, having two babies close together – exhaustion and in pregnancy  – the babies’ lying on the nerve’.  50 years ago there was no MRI, so sophisticated tools for diagnosing MS save a rubber mallet and a pin.  They basically went on the past history and presenting symptoms.  When I was diagnosed my random symptoms like pendulum waves created the perfect event for the first and second opinions of what they called back then ‘aggressive’ MS and that I would be wheelchair bound within a very short time.
But I recovered – full health – and have been in remission for 54 years.  Yes, of course, it could have been a misdiagnosis – but consider that at the time it was extremely difficult to diagnose with the tools available to neurologists.  They would have needed to have the strongest evidence to support their diagnosis.
Nevertheless, to me, it does not matter whether I had had a series of small strokes (as a medical friend later hypothesized) or MS. Simply  I was extremely sick.  Back then there also was no drugs, no medication to help.  Instead, I listened to my intuition and through rest, mediation and focusing a daily creative practice I came back to full health.  The only possible indicator that I had a severe illness is in my feet -peripheral neuropathy – a result of damage to nerves (or could it be simply old age?!)
The point here is what the heck does a label of a disease matter? People do recover from 18053023catastrophic illnesses, life-threatening illnesses. Read Radical Remission by Kelly Turner – visit the Radical Remission Project  FB page or website to see authenticated stories of people healing. In March I received the privilege of being Radical Remission’s Healing Story of the month – amazing being alongside so many who have returned to wellness.
Over the years I tried to tell my story to people who suffered MS but their eyes glazed over, ‘yes, but …..’ so I stopped until I could prove the steps that I had taken ticked all of the scientific boxes only then did I write my story  ‘A Journey of Creative Healing.’  Naturally, I would love you to read it,  but more importantly I want to ask – how open are you to possibilities, or still open after disappointment and disappointment in learning to live with the disease?
 I know the disease is wretched but please don’t close down to possibilities.  My story, like virtually all the stories in the Radical Remission Project records, was no ‘pick up your bed and walk’ miracle, it took time, resilience, focus and a powerful belief that I would recover from whatever ailed me.
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2 thoughts on “How Open Are You to Possibilities?

  1. Thank you so much for sharing your story. I can tell you I was diagnosed with MS almost 17 years ago and at first I fought it by denying the facts. I am taking the right medications now, but it has progressed because there are many new lesions. I do believe that holding onto a positive mind heals way more than all these medications. I definitely want to read the book you have mentioned. I appreciate you sharing this information and hope you are having a great day!

  2. Hi Alyssa, Thank you for your comment. Like you I am sure my reaction to the diagnosis was denial. Denial was a very comfortable place to hide from the enormity of the situation. But you know half a century ago was such a different world. I can’t remember being offered any treatment, save eat a healthy diet, take a pain-killer when necessary and get plenty of rest. When I read today random MS groups posts I see so many options for treatment, so much support is available to MS patients. I think that not having that expanse of treatment and support, like for instance your own uplifting website and blogs, meant that my denial was perfect for me at that point in time. I had so much going on in my life, two very young babies and a dysfunctional way of handling my grief of the loss of my husband, that denial of the diagnosis – not that I was sick, was right. I had hit rock bottom both physically and emotionally and the only way from there was up. Fortunately like you, at the very heart of me, I was a positive person, I always believed that i would get better and as there was no constant reminder of treatment, medication or sharing MS stuff with groups it was easy to stay centred in denial. Keep on keeping on with your positive focus. I believe where you put your focus is vital and feeling grateful for life’s splendid moments emotionally will make you happy and happiness can only be good for you. Lots of love lovely girl xx

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